My Cup Runneth Over
Page Twelve
"Now, I know you don't have to stay in bed anymore," Trent said, then took both his hands and started unbuttoning Carlos's shirt as he continued to speak, "But if there was an incentive to be there it might not be so bad." Trent finished unbuttoning Carlos's shirt then put his hands inside it running his hands around his lover's waist as he pulled the shirt out of Carlos's pants. Keeping his arms firmly around his lover's waist, Trent began to nuzzle Carlos's neck very gently. "So I was thinking...," more nuzzling, "Maybe we...," more nuzzling with a few licks added in, "Could think of a good reason...," and now some kisses added, "To get you back in bed."
Carlos looked at Trent as he unbuttoned his shirt -- his lover was taking his time and it was so sexy, so appealing, and it felt so good. He couldn't take his eyes off of Trent -- here was the love of his life taking care of him, giving him -- them -- what they needed, to be close and share each other with each other, exploring the love they had for one another. He closed his eyes when Trent's hands found their way to his waist and began touching him. It nearly took his breath away when Trent began nuzzling his neck -- that was just what he needed -- his lover's gentle touch, it was perfect. He began to moan softly at each lick of Trent's tongue on his skin, listening to his lover's words, wanting everything that Trent was offering him. "Yes...," was all he could say, as he moved his head back in response to his lover's nuzzling, allowing Trent more access to his neck.
Trent continued to nuzzle, lick and kiss Carlos's neck. Moving his hands slowly over his lover's body as he went, Trent slid his hands around Carlos's waist and up to his chest. He then put both hands on Carlos's upper arms and ran his hands slowly down his lover's arms and around his own back, taking hold of Carlos's hands when he got there. Removing his lover's arms from around himself, he then gave Carlos's neck a gentle nip then a kiss before moving away.
Keeping both of his lover's hands in his, Trent started towards the bedroom, turning Carlos around so he was facing the way they were going, Trent walking backwards. When his lover was at about arms length, Trent began to lead Carlos gently forward toward the bedroom. As he looked in Carlos's eyes, he smiled at him, a smile filled with all the love he had inside his heart and soul for him.
Carlos was completely under Trent's spell -- so magical and he felt like he was floating, his mind now focusing on his lover. He looked deeply into those beautiful blue eyes of Trent's and that wonderful sexy smile, then followed his lover as he moved, smiling back at him with all of the love he had inside and even more than he realized was possible for one person to have for another.
Carlos's smile nearly took Trent's breath away and it did make him considerably more aroused than he already was. He was still always so amazed at the effect Carlos could have on him without even touching him.
As they approached the bed, Trent changed their positions, turning Carlos around so his back was to the bed then let go of his lover's hands. He put his hands inside his lover's shirt on his abdomen and ran his open palms up to his lover's chest slowly, then up farther towards his shoulders. When his hands reached Carlos's shoulders, Trent leaned forward and began to kiss his lover's chest slowly, softly, as his hands continued to run over his shoulders and then down his arms, carrying his shirt with them as they went.
The feel of his lover's hands moving up his chest and then up to his shoulders was very arousing and it was becoming more intense as Trent began to kiss him -- so softly too -- like a whisper. He moaned then whimpered twice as his lover slid his shirt down his arms.
Now that his lover's shirt was off, Trent moved on to unbuckling his lover's belt. He continued to drop kisses on his lover's chest, adding a few licks here and there. Once his belt was unbuckled and pants unzipped, Trent moved his kisses slowly down to Carlos's abdomen as he sank to his knees, stopping to very briefly kiss and lick his lovers navel.
His lover's kisses were amazing -- what they did for him was like nothing one could imagine without experiencing them and each time he felt one of Trent's kisses it felt like the very first time. He whimpered again at the continual licks and kisses that his lover lavished his body with and moaned when Trent licked and kissed his navel. It felt so good.
Once he was on his knees, Trent turned his attention to taking off Carlos's shoes and socks. Once they were off, he looked up at his lover and smiled at him as he rose up a bit so he could get a hold of Carlos's pants. Slowly and gently Trent slid his lover's pants and underwear off him, Carlos helping by stepping out of them one leg at a time.
His heart filled with love, Carlos smiled back at his lover, stepping out of his pants a leg at a time, feeling Trent's love in his beautiful smile.
Keeping eye contact with Carlos the whole time, Trent put out his hands and put them on Carlos's thighs. He ran his palms up and down them a few times before running them up further towards his abdomen as he stood up slowly, running his hands up to Carlos's chest then shoulders as he did. Once standing, Trent captured Carlos's mouth in a soft kiss, taking his time, enjoying the feel of his lover's lips against his. "I love you so very much, Carlos," Trent said, with his mouth but from his heart and his soul before capturing his lover's mouth in another kiss.
Carlos closed his eyes and returned his lover's oh-so-soft kiss, the feel of Trent's lips touching his, enjoying the kiss to its fullest. He loved the fact that Trent was taking his time, adding to the most incredible feeling in the world. He was so very grateful that God had brought them together. "I love you, too... very much," he said quietly, and kissed Trent back again just as softly as he had before.
Breaking the kiss, Trent backed up just far enough from Carlos so he could remove his own clothes. He did so fairly quickly, not totally rushing, but not taking his time either -- he needed to get back to touching his lover -- his lover needing his touch.
Carlos watched his lover undress, enjoying every movement Trent made as he removed each piece of clothing. It was at a perfect pace, and he couldn't wait for more of his lover's incredible touches and kisses.
Having removed his own clothing, Trent stepped forward again, closing the gap between himself and Carlos. He took his lover in his arms and kissed him again, but with more fire and passion this time.
Carlos sucked in his breath at the nearness of his lover and returned his kiss with all of the passion he had inside. Trent's kiss was amazing, arousing him even more if that were possible and he couldn't get enough. He didn't want Trent to stop kissing him or touching him in any way.
With his arms around Carlos, Trent turned them around so he was facing away from the bed. Keeping a tight hold on his lover and continuing to kiss him, Trent fell backwards onto the bed, taking Carlos with him, his lover landing on top of him. Trent rolled them both over so he was on top of Carlos and they were more or less all the way on the bed.
Carlos moaned into Trent's mouth as they fell onto the bed -- it was so sexy and romantic the way that Trent took him and he wanted more. When his lover rolled them over he moaned again, louder this time -- loving the feeling of having his lover's body weight on top of him -- and his hands went around his lover's waist, down his back, to his backside where he massaged him gently as he moaned into his lover's mouth as they continued to kiss.
Moving his arms from around Carlos, Trent brought his hands up, one going into his lover's hair and the other to his lover's chest, caressing it softly. Trent moaned into Carlos's mouth, still kissing him deeply, when he felt his lover's hand on his backside. It felt so wonderful and aroused him even further.
Breaking the kiss, Trent began to kiss and lick his way down from Carlos's mouth to his chest, stopping to nuzzle his neck and give it a few gentle nips. One hand still in his lover's hair, Trent moved his other hand to Carlos's nipple. Having reached his lover's chest with his kissing, he took one nipple into his mouth and sucked on it and rubbed the other with his fingers.
This was all so perfect and Carlos couldn't get enough -- not nearly enough. He loved everything Trent was doing to him, for him. It was just right -- not too fast and not too slow -- just exactly what he needed as his incredible lover sensed his every need and desire. When Trent nuzzled his neck he tilted his head back to give him more room, moaning and whimpering at the wonderful sensations that his lover filled him with. The feel of his lover sucking one nipple and rubbing the other one was nearly too much for him as he arched his back and moaned louder, followed by several whimpers. God, what Trent could do to him as his mind, body and soul were completely taken over by this wonderful man.
Trent removed his hand from his lover's hair, bringing it down to where his mouth was. Releasing Carlos's nipple from his mouth, his fingers took over immediately for his mouth as he slowly licked, nipped and kissed his way to the other nipple, taking his time, tasting his lover's wonderful flavor, keeping both nipples occupied with his fingers. When he finally reached the other nipple, he did the same thing, only in reverse, his fingers letting go of the nipple only to be taken over immediately by his mouth, sucking hard on his lover's already hard nipple.
Carlos was beginning to writhe on the bed now, arching his back even higher as Trent sucked hard on his nipple. He had no idea his nipple could get that hard and here his lover was making this one all that much harder and he loved it and wanted even more. His mind was delirious now, he was unable to speak -- to say what was on his mind. He just knew that Trent was giving him everything he could have ever dreamed of and he was losing himself in his lover's touches and kisses. His passion and desire was so hot, so very hot, that he found himself totally lost in everything Trent was doing to him. He loved the way Trent was taking his time, making it last -- that's what he needed right now -- to make it last and last.
Trent once again brought his free hand up to where his mouth was. He released his lover's nipple from his mouth and his fingers took over immediately as he began to move lower, kissing and licking his way towards his lover's navel. Keeping both hands on Carlos's nipples, Trent reached his navel and began to kiss and lick it, putting his tongue in it and swirling it around. Closing his mouth around the navel, he sucked on it while continuing to run his tongue around it and inside it.
Carlos needed to grab something -- to hold onto something and he grasped the covers tightly in his hands, almost thrashing now as his wonderful lover continued the deliciously sweet torment he was applying to his nipples -- now with his fingers instead of his mouth. The feeling of Trent's hot, wonderful mouth kissing and licking his navel and his almost too hot tongue dipping inside it and swirling around nearly sent him over the edge. He cried out loudly followed by several whimpers, his grip on the covers tightening as his arousal grew so strong he didn't know how much longer he could last. He tried to speak, to make what he needed and wanted known, but he couldn't -- he was too far beyond that now -- all he knew was that his lover was taking him right where he wanted to go and he couldn't wait to get there.
As soon as Carlos grabbed at the bed, Trent knew he didn't have much more time before his lover fell off that edge he was balanced on. But he just couldn't resist his lover's navel. When he heard Carlos cry out and then whimper, he knew his lover could take no more. And quite frankly, neither could he -- his lover's reactions to his caressing was making him so aroused he needed to join with his lover as much as his lover needed him to.
Letting go of Carlos's navel, Trent gave it a final nip and kiss before moving back up to Carlos's mouth, releasing his nipples from his fingers as he did. Trent gave Carlos a brief but passionate kiss before releasing his lover's mouth. "I love you so very much, Carlos... So very much...," Trent said then kissed his lover very briefly on the lips once more before moving off him far enough to get the KY from the nightstand.
Carlos watched as Trent moved up towards him, feeling his lover's fingers leaving his nipples. He returned Trent's passionate kiss with more passion than he had ever felt before. It was as if everything he had, all that he felt, was going through him and straight to his lover. He watched as his lover moved to get the KY. He knew Trent had read him perfectly, that their moment to be joined as one was very near, and he began to pant in anticipation, his hands still holding onto the bed covers tightly, waiting for his lover to enter his body and join them.
Snagging the KY without moving all the way off Carlos, Trent moved back and to his hands and knees, straddling Carlos, then kissed his lover one more time briefly before backing up, moving down his lover's body dropping kisses as he went, but moving quickly, both their needs at a peak.
Carlos couldn't take his eyes off of his lover, watching him as he moved, kissing him back tenderly yet passionately, whimpering at each kiss that his incredible lover dropped on his body as he moved.
Getting where he needed to be, Trent helped Carlos move, then prepared his own shaft with the KY quickly. Taking a bit more of the lubricant on his fingers, before tossing the tube aside, Trent put his fingers inside his lover, but only for a moment, only to put the KY there -- their need to join was too great for anything more.
Carlos moaned watching Trent prepare his shaft. That's what he wanted to see, it was a sight that thrilled him. He cried out loudly and arched his back when his lover put his fingers inside his body -- it was so brief, so gentle. He was glad that Trent understood his need, the need to join their bodies as one.
Removing his fingers almost as quickly as he had put them in, Trent replaced them just as quickly with his shaft, entering Carlos quickly and deeply as he also lay down on top of him, putting his hands on either side of his lover. Trent stopped when he was all the way in, when he was lying on top of his lover. He stopped briefly to kiss Carlos before beginning to move slowly, continuing to kiss him. But slow wasn't going to last long.
Carlos arched his back high and cried out loudly as he felt his lover's hard shaft entering his body, thrilling to the feel of it going in so deep, so quick. When Trent lay down on top of him he was beside himself, the weight of his lover's body making it even more exciting for him. He returned Trent's kiss passionately, the pause after joining stimulating him even further. This was so good, so very good, and he wanted it to continue like this for a little while -- nice and slow, his lover lying on top of him and kissing him. He didn't think he could ever get enough.
Trent continued to move inside of Carlos slowly -- continued to kiss him passionately. It felt so good, so very good, and he wanted it to last as long as possible. Finally unable to keep the slow pace any longer, Trent lifted himself up a bit off of Carlos so he could move faster inside of him, breaking the kiss reluctantly as he did so.
As his lover moved inside of his body, Carlos kissed Trent back passionately and intensely, moaning into his lover's mouth as he did so, his passion rising even faster than he realized it could. No matter how much he wanted them to continue their slow pace, he knew it wouldn't last very long and once again he was so pleased that his lover recognized his need for them to climb to that peak together so that they could fall off into pure bliss once more.
Thrusting faster and harder inside of Carlos, Trent knew neither of them was going to last much longer. Trent reached down as far as he could with his mouth, capturing Carlos's mouth again in a passionate kiss. How he loved kissing his lover as they neared that peak together, both so ready to fall off it.
Carlos wrapped his arms around his lover's waist and slid his hands down to Trent's backside, massaging his behind gently at first, then more vigorously as Trent thrust faster and harder inside of him, encouraging his lover to go in even deeper and harder and faster. He kissed Trent back with all of the fire and passion he had inside, moaning over and over into his lover's mouth, letting go of what restraint he had left as his orgasm was right on the edge. He simply couldn't hold out much longer.
When Carlos put his hands on his rear end, Trent almost lost it right then and there. When his lover increased his caresses, he did lose what was left of his self restraint. But Carlos was on the edge too, so he didn't want to hold back any longer. Just a few more thrusts inside his lover, and Trent came, buried deep with in Carlos's body, Carlos coming only seconds later, his shaft pressed between their bodies.
His lover's thrusts were wonderful, each one more powerful than the one before, bringing out more of the passion they felt for each other each time. After a few more, Carlos felt his lover come deep inside his body and it was the most incredible feeling knowing he had satisfied his lover which in turn caused him to come -- one of the most intense, thrilling, satisfying orgasms he'd ever known.
As his orgasm ended, Trent finally released his lover's mouth. They both needed the air. Trent drew his breath in sharply, his arms giving out from under him as he collapsed on top of Carlos, putting his head on his shoulder. He let out his breath in a ragged exhale, then began to pant hard and moan ever so softly.
Carlos breathed in deeply after reluctantly parting with his lover's luscious lips and sensational kisses. He brought his arms back around his lover's waist and ran one hand through Trent's hair, loving the feeling of his lover's head on his shoulder. He listened to Trent panting and his moans -- he was moaning himself as he returned ever so slowly from his very intense orgasm. That had been truly incredible and he had needed it so much. It was hard to explain -- he always enjoyed, no he loved it when they made love -- but this was different because he had felt so lost, so scared and vulnerable and the love and attention Trent had just shown him had taken a lot of that away and reminded him of how much he was loved and cared for, which was just what he needed.
Still unable to do much but remember to breathe, Trent brought one hand up to Carlos's chest and stroked it very softly, very gently as his breathing began to calm a bit. Moving his head over his lover's heart, hearing it's strong, steady, albeit fast beat, his breathing began to calm a bit.
Carlos just looked at his lover, still unable to speak at this point, sighing and moaning at his lover's very soft and gentle touches, loving the feeling of his lover's hand on his chest. When Trent moved his head on his chest, Carlos's hand came up and softly caressed his lover's back, listening to Trent's breathing calm down some and rubbed his back soothingly as his lover slowly came down from his climax.
Once he was able to move himself a bit, Trent lifted his head from his lover's chest and kissed him ever so gently. He removed himself from his lover's body and waited for Carlos to be lying flat on the bed again. When he was, Trent rolled off of Carlos, but as he did, he drew his lover with him, not on top of him, but to his side, gathering him into his arms. Trent put his hand in Carlos's hair and drew his lover's head to his chest. He continued to hug him tightly, moving just his hand, running his fingers through his lover's lovely hair.
How Carlos loved Trent's kiss, and he returned it softly and gently, then moved with his lover onto his side as Trent rolled off of him. He closed his eyes as he felt Trent's arms go around him, holding him. He let out a deep sigh when he put his head on Trent's chest and wrapped one arm tightly around his lover's waist, the emotions washing over him in waves. Their incredible lovemaking and everything he had gone through since the injury and the doctor's visit had many different levels of feeling and emotion and he was completely taken over at this point. It was wonderful, incredible lovemaking that had saved him and made him feel so much better, yet he still had so much inside about the injury that he hadn't yet dealt with or talked about. All of the emotion from everything combined made him want to hold Trent and he wanted Trent to never let him go.
Trent ran one hand down Carlos's arm that was holding him then back up again a few times as he continued to run his hand through his lover's hair. Trent moved his head down to kiss Carlos's forehead, then the top of his head. "I love you so very much, Carlos," he said, never feeling like he said it enough, "So very much."
Carlos felt so safe and protected in his lover's arms, lying there warm and loved beyond his wildest imagination. He snuggled against Trent even more, almost huddled against him. He closed his eyes at his lover's kisses, loving the feel of Trent's hand in his hair. "I love you, too," he said softly, as he tightened his hold around his lover. He started to shake a little, just from the feeling of being so overwhelmed by everything and being flooded with emotion. He just needed Trent to hold him close and tight and feel his warmth and strength.
Trent could tell there was something going on with Carlos -- it was more than him recovering from their lovemaking -- and he assumed it was the doctor visit coming back to his mind. He tightened his hold on Carlos, moving his head to the side and over his own shoulder a bit, he moved so his head was resting on top of Carlos's which was still on his chest. Turning his head he kissed the top of Carlos's head before putting his head back down on top of it. He would wait awhile before pressing his lover.
Carlos once again marveled at and deeply appreciated Trent sensing his needs. Feeling his lover tighten his hold around him made him feel more secure, more safe and warm and his shaking started to subside a little. He closed his eyes and sighed as Trent kissed him. The feel of his lover's head on top of his felt wonderful. He was imagining himself back in the doctor's office listening to the news about his injury, going over everything the doctor had said in his mind. It was all so much to take in, and he still couldn't get past certain things and didn't know how to. He took in a very deep breath, and let it out raggedly, still shaking a little but trying not to show it. He did need to let it out though, and he knew it, he told himself as he tightened his hold around his lover's waist even more.
Trent ran his hand up and down his lover's back a few times, trying to soothe away whatever was bothering Carlos. He knew though he would only be helped by talking about it. He was hoping it wasn't something bad Carlos hadn't told him yet. He didn't honestly think so -- they could read each other too well for that. But he hadn't gone into any of the details while they had been out in public. Trent needed to know as much as Carlos needed to tell him.
Trent turned his head and kissed the top of Carlos's head again as he tightened his hold on his lover once more. "Do you want to talk about it?" Trent asked, very softly.
Carlos nodded his head, lifting it just enough so that he could look into his lover's eyes. He took another deep breath and let it out. This time it wasn't quite as ragged and his breathing was slowing down a little more. "I was so scared, Trent," he said so softly, a whisper almost.
Trent moved his head a bit and looked back at Carlos seeing the emotions in his eyes. He nodded his head ever so slightly, indicating he understood his fear and encouraging him to continue.
Carlos swallowed hard, then continued, "So scared. Ever since the day I was hurt I was wondering when I would get well, when this would be over." He paused again, trying to get rid of the feelings inside, but they weren't ready to go away yet. He buried his face in Trent's chest again for a few moments then pulled away a little.
Trent tightened his hold on Carlos, putting his hand back in his lover's hair, stroking him gently.
"I had no idea what the doctor would say today, none, and I know things are better, baby, I know, but I just... I...," and he stopped, needing to get himself a little more together before he continued, so he stopped talking and lay against Trent some more.
"It's OK, Carlos, really it is. I can understand how you'd be scared, even when you knew you were getting better," Trent said, not quite sure what else to say. He'd been scared in the same way himself, no matter how many times he told himself not to be. It was unavoidable. Trent continued to hold Carlos tightly and stroke his head and hair gently, soothingly. "Is there more the doctor told you you haven't told me?" Trent asked, needing to be sure.
How he needed his lover's touch. He held onto Trent even tighter feeling his lover's hold around him tighten in response to his need, feeling his lover's hand in his hair. "No, baby, I told you everything. It's just that I had really been hoping and counting on being so much better than what he said. I thought for sure that it would only be a few more days. I didn't expect him to say it could take another two weeks," he said, it all starting to come out in a rush as his feelings started to break loose.
"I can understand that too, Carlos," Trent said. He had wished the spells would be gone by now, too.
Carlos started to breathe more heavily and faster too, not panicked, just his fears coming to the surface now that he was talking about them. "I... know... I'll be okay... but I don't want... to go through... anymore spells," he said, between breaths, as he tried to slow his breathing down, holding Trent close and tight.
Trent tightened his hold on Carlos. "Hey, come on," Trent said, a bit alarmed at this reaction. He knew Carlos had been scared, but he hadn't realized the depth. "You need time to heal. You know that. The spells aren't pleasant, of course, but they *are* better than they were. That's good. And the doctor wouldn't be letting you do more if he weren't convinced you were better, too," Trent wasn't sure what else to say. "Two weeks is not all that long. And we're going to go through them together. I'll be with you just as much as I can be, both here and at work. Remember the doctor said you could start back slowly."
Carlos nodded his head slowly, understanding what Trent said, knowing that his lover was right. "I know you're right, baby -- I know it," he said, pausing to kiss his lover's chest several times. He looked at Trent, into his lover's eyes, seeing and feeling the concern his lover had for him.
Trent smiled at Carlos looking at him. This was better. **Just needed someone to remind him,** Trent thought.
"Thank you so much for being there for me through all of this. I knew you would be, and I felt like the only place I was ever safe was in your arms," Carlos added, dropping a few more kisses on Trent's chest.
Trent smiled some more. "And you always will be," he said softly.
"And I know we'll see this through together. I know there will be more spells, and I'll be OK. We'll handle them as they happen. And I'm glad I'll be going to work even if it is only part time. It'll feel good to be contributing to the office which had also been on my mind a lot. I just didn't feel like I was doing my fair share," he added, his voice soft but solid.
"I know it felt that way, Carlos, I'm sure I would have felt the same way in your place. But you can't do what you can't do and you'd have done the same for me, right?" Trent said. He knew how Carlos felt, but his absence from work was hardly his own doing.
Carlos was beginning to feel better and it was because of Trent's love and strength that he was able to get through all of this. He was worried about how his lover had been dealing with everything too, and knew it had been equally rough for Trent to watch him go through it all. "I'm worried about you, Trent, and I want to talk about how you're feeling about everything. It's very important," he said, snuggling even closer to his lover's body if that were possible. He needed so much and he wanted to give just as much back.
Trent looked down at Carlos snuggled so close to his body. This wasn't something he was expecting. But his lover was right. It was affecting him, too. Trent thought for a minute before answering. "Now that we both know for sure you're going to be just fine, given time to heal, well...," Trent paused and thought for a moment, then continued, "It really is just getting through the next couple weeks." He really wasn't sure what else to say. "I was concerned before the appointment, before we knew for sure you were healing like you should be. I'm still concerned about leaving you alone before you're 100% better."
Carlos looked at his lover and smiled, happy and relieved that Trent was handling everything so well. He really had no doubt about that, but since he had kept things bottled up inside himself for a while now he wanted to make sure that any feelings either of them had were talked about so they could really heal each other which they both needed. "I know you are, baby, and I promise you that I won't go anywhere alone if I don't have to. You're wonderful and incredible -- do you know that?" he asked, reaching up and putting his hand behind Trent's head, bringing their lips together in a very passionate kiss.
Trent kissed Carlos back and when the kiss broke he said, "I do appreciate that, Carlos, really I do -- your not going anywhere you don't have to by yourself. It makes me feel so much better. Thank you." Trent caught Carlos's mouth in another brief but passionate kiss.
"The way you made love to me was beautiful -- thank you," he whispered softly once the kiss broke. He was still so amazed at the effect that Trent had on him. He leaned against his lover once more, snuggling nice and close and put one arm around his waist, holding Trent tightly and breathing in his scent.
"Oh, you liked that did you?" Trent teased, "Gosh, I didn't even notice." Trent broke out in a big smile remembering how erotic it was to him to hear Carlos enjoying himself so much when they made love.
Trent ran his hand up and down Carlos's back, just enjoying the moment of closeness with his lover. Now that the apprehension of the appointment was out of the way, and they had talked about the results and what the doctor had said, the other thing that had been bothering Trent resurfaced. Should he bring it up now or wait? It needed to be dealt with.
"Mmmm..., that feels so nice, baby," Carlos said softly, loving the feel of his lover's hand running up and down his back -- his sensitive touch was very soothing and relaxing and Carlos found himself feeling better than he had earlier. He just needed the comfort of Trent holding him close and he would keep getting better. He noticed after a few minutes that his lover had drifted off again, lost in thought, and it was obvious that he had something on his mind. "What is it, Trent? What's on your mind?" he asked, touching the back of his hand to his lover's cheek and caressing it softly.
Trent looked at Carlos when the felt him touch his cheek. He smiled at his lover who was looking at him, face full of concern. "I was just thinking," Trent said, trying to think of how best to say what needed to be said. "Now that the doctor said you can drive, on a limited basis at least, it means you don't *have* to be staying here with me," Trent lowered his voice a bit, "You could go back to your apartment." Trent continued to run his hand up and down Carlos's back and to look at him, wanting to see his reactions to his words. "You know, since we became lovers, we've more or less been living together, here or at your place," Trent said, "How do you feel about making that official? You moving in here? Me moving in with you? Us finding another place together?"
Carlos looked up at Trent and smiled his brightest smile ever. "I can't think of anything I'd like better," he said. "No, make that *love* better," he added, that sparkle in his eyes. The idea sounded perfect, wonderful and everything he could ever hope for, and he was very excited about it. The word 'official' sounded like music to his ears. He smiled even brighter if that were possible and reached up to put a hand around his lover's head bringing their lips together in a searing passionate kiss that left him almost breathless when their lips parted. "I'd like to move in here, baby -- your place is perfect. When can we make it official?" he asked eagerly, ready to go to his place and pack. He had been hoping they would make it official one day and now that his lover asked, it was a dream coming true. "I love you so much," he said, pure emotion in his eyes as he reached up to kiss his lover again.
Trent smiled at Carlos, both for the fact he had obviously been thinking the same thing he had, but also because Carlos was just so darn cute. Once he was set in a direction, a decision made, he was just so anxious. Trent really loved watching it. "I think there are few things to be considered first," Trent said. He hated to be a downer, but there really were practical considerations here.
Carlos looked intently at his lover sensing something was on his mind and that it was serious. He waited patiently for his lover to continue, smiling just as brightly as he had been, encouraging his lover to say whatever it was he had on his mind.
"Sounds like here is the place of choice as far as where," Trent said, with a hint of question in his voice looking to Carlos for confirmation of his words. "But I think more importantly, we need to tell people about this, about us, before we can actually move in together officially," Trent said, knowing this might not be very easy. They had good, level headed friends, but one never knew what this kind of thing might bring out in a person, even if you thought you knew them.
Carlos nodded in agreement -- this was where he wanted to live, to move into Trent's place. He swallowed a little hard at hearing the next part and his smile faded just slightly for a moment then was back full force. He always wanted and hoped there would come a day when they would tell the people in their lives about their relationship. He wanted that more than anything -- to be more out in the open and not have to live in secrecy all the time. Would how people react affect their moving in together? Would they lose their family or friends love and support? He certainly hoped not -- that just didn't seem right somehow. He looked at his lover straight in the eyes and smiled brightly bringing up a hand to caress his cheek. "There's no time like the present. Who do you think we should tell first?" he asked, full of the strength and conviction that they would be all right no matter what happened.
Trent was glad to see Carlos was in agreement with him about being open about their relationship. But there really was no other way if they were going to live together. He knew Carlos must realize not everyone would react positively, and one couldn't really know the impact of a negative reaction until it happened, but he still felt he needed to say something more.
"I'm really glad you agree about telling people, Carlos, but realize, not everyone is going to react in a positive manner. Even if they eventually come around, and I think most of the people we need to tell will, it isn't going to be easy." Trent remembered he and Bryan telling the few people they had about their relationship, remembered deciding not to tell his own family. He also remembered hearing horror stories from others not as fortunate as they had been. "Not everyone is going to react like Kim did," he added.
Carlos nodded his head, understanding what Trent was telling him and he lightly caressed his lover's chest, letting his words sink in as he continued to listen to Trent. "No, we were lucky with Kim -- and I'm grateful for her taking this the way she did. We know we can count on her and that will help so much not only with our friendship with her but the business end of things," he said, remembering the moment in the office when he had kissed Trent in front of Kim without thinking. The look on Kim's face was one he'd never forget and would always cherish as the first acceptance of the relationship he and Trent shared.
"We have good, stable friends, Carlos, we both know that," Trent went on, feeling he needed to be very clear here, "But this kind of thing can make people react in very strange ways -- people you think you know deep down can have a totally different reaction than you think they will." Trent looked at Carlos very seriously, "You just need to be prepared for the fact not all our friends may be able to accept this -- or us, once they know."
"We do have good friends, Trent -- and we also have each other. We'll get through this together no matter what happens," he said with the same conviction he had earlier. He took a deep breath and let it out slowly. "I realize that this won't be easy, that our friends may have a difficult time with this -- us -- and they may even turn away and not want us in their lives anymore. I hope and pray that doesn't happen, baby, but if it does we also have to accept it no matter how hard it is. We *will* make it through this, Trent. *Together*," he said, looking up at his lover with all the love he had in his eyes.
Carlos reached up and caressed his lover's cheek with the back of his hand, looking longingly at his lover. He knew full well that there would be a long difficult road ahead of them, but this is what they both wanted and they would not deny themselves their lives together. "So -- who would you like to tell first?" he asked again, ready to move forward in the first step toward their official capacity to live together.
Trent smiled at Carlos. He was glad to see that Carlos seemed to understand it, but real understanding was something he hoped never happened to them. That could only come when someone totally turned their backs after finding out. "I suppose our families are the place to start. But perhaps we should decide just who we need to tell. We don't want to hide anything, but we don't want to be advertising either. Only those who need to know is my preference."
"I think you have a very good idea, Trent -- let's just tell who we need to -- who needs to know. Our family and very closest friends will do for now," Carlos agreed.
Trent thought for a moment. "Besides our families? Roscoe, Walker, Alex, Trivette, Butch...," Trent trailed off, "Anyone I missed?"
Carlos nodded his head as he listened to the names his lover mentioned. "I think the list of names you have will do it," he added. "When do you want to start?" he asked, hoping it could be right away. He wanted to start their new lives together in an official capacity as soon as possible and the sooner they told everyone the better as far as he was concerned.
"Soon as we can, I guess," Trent said, not really looking forward to the idea of the telling, but looking forward to the end result of being honest and open and more importantly, living together, "And don't forget, in the meantime, while we get everyone told, we can still be working towards the official thing. Like you need to give your landlord notice, start moving your things here, that kind of thing."
Carlos looked at his lover and knew what he was thinking -- it was pretty much the same thing that was on his mind. He reached up and brought Trent's head down gently to kiss him tenderly and passionately. "It'll be fine, baby," he said, and dropped several kisses on his lover's chest. "I can't wait to get started moving in here -- it'll be so wonderful when it's all done and we're really living together in every sense of the word," he added hugging his lover reassuringly.
Trent smiled at Carlos, knowing he was right. It would be all right, as long as they were together, no matter what happened. "Since we can't really start making it totally official for a while yet, until we get everyone told, but we know we are," Trent wasn't sure if the was making sense or not, he was just so happy, "You might want to go to your place tomorrow and get some more of your things. Since it'll all be ending up here anyway. At the very least you're going to want more than the few clothes you have here if you're going to be here full time."
Carlos was so excited and so very happy that when he brought their lips together for another passionate kiss, he deepened it so much that his senses filled completely, tasting everything that was Trent, not able to get nearly enough. When he finally had to break the kiss out of the need for air he was breathing very fast and heavily, and he was thrilled almost beyond words. "Can we? I can't wait for tomorrow to get here so I can get some things over here. What time do you want to head over to my place tomorrow?" he asked. Trent's place had always felt like home right from the start, but to have his own personal things there would mean even more to him and he couldn't wait to get started. He looked at his lover barely able to contain his excitement.
Trent started laughing. He couldn't help himself. He was just so happy and Carlos was being so darn cute, once again, a decision made, his enthusiasm had taken him over completely. "You're too much sometimes, you know that?" Trent said, more of a statement than a question. "I love you so much," Trent said, still laughing and smiling happily, "Now, come here," he added in a sensuous voice, still tinged with laughter. Trent caught Carlos's mouth in a passionate kiss as he scooted down the bed a bit then rolled them over so he was on top of Carlos. Breaking the kiss, Trent said, "We still have about an hour before Snoopy starts whining. Think we can find something to do for that time? Humm?" With that, Trent began to kiss Carlos again, starting them on their way to filling the time until dinner.
The lovers spent another peaceful and quiet evening together -- eating dinner, watching TV, making love -- each knowing they were on the way to making their relationship official. It wasn't an easy road ahead of them, but they both knew that together they could face anything. They fell asleep that night in each other's arms as usual, knowing they would be doing so now for the rest of their lives -- together.
The next morning followed the same routine as always -- breakfast, shower, making love -- not necessarily in that order. But today they wanted to go to Carlos's apartment so he could get a few more of his things. Having finished getting dressed, Trent was waiting for Carlos to finish so they could leave. "Not sure how much stuff you want to bring today, or if you even know, but I think we should take your truck. Not room in my car for much," Trent said, watching Carlos get his shoes tied.
Carlos finished tying his shoes and looked at his lover, thinking for a moment before he answered. "I don't know what I'll bring, but I agree that we should take the truck just to be on the safe side," he said, grinning at Trent. He was just so happy and excited at getting his things and having his lover there with him to help was just going to add to the excitement. He couldn't get over it -- they were taking the first steps to moving in together and he was so very thrilled. He walked over to Trent, pulled him off the bed and into his arms and kissed him deeply and passionately before gently breaking the kiss. "Ready?" he asked, as he loosened his hold around his lover and looked into his eyes.
Trent just loved being pulled into Carlos's embrace. Could he ever get enough of it? He didn't think so. "I'm always ready for you, my love," Trent said, using one of Carlos's lines back at him, "Oh, you mean to *leave*? Sorry, my mistake. When *will* I get that right?" Trent kissed Carlos again briefly. "Actually, I think we better get going before we have to delay our departure," Trent said in a suggestive tone.
Carlos just smiled happily and kissed Trent back once more. "Well, there *are* other forms of being ready, baby, and we'll just have to try the other kind out later," he said just as suggestively.
Heading out of the apartment, they got into Carlos's Durango, with Trent driving, and headed to Carlos's apartment. Collecting the mail on the way in, they entered the apartment. Trent waited for Carlos to shut the elevator gate before grabbing his arm and spinning him around quickly and hugging him tight.
Laughing at the surprised expression on Carlos's face, Trent said, "I'm just so happy you're moving in with me." Trent kissed his lover briefly before letting go of him so they could get started.
Carlos was surprised and thrilled when his lover grabbed him and spun him around. "I'm happier than you'll ever know," he said.
"Oh, I think I have some idea of that...," Trent said, still grinning at Carlos.
"So, what do you want me to do?" Trent asked, then realized how his words were being interpreted when he saw the wicked grin break out on Carlos's face. "I *meant* to get things together for you to bring," Trent said, marveling once again at how that grin -- that lovely naughty grin -- could start the party in his pants so quickly.
Carlos's eyes were sparkling very brightly and his wicked grin got even more wicked if that were possible. Then he changed to a smile and said, "If you could go through my closet and grab my pants for work that would be great for starters. There are some shirts in there, too -- on the shelves. Thanks, baby."
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